February 13, 2010
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Video: Dear God…
Zoe and I have been having a rough couple of days. On thursday I was yelling at her for not cleaning up her blocks, not cleaning up animal toys, just not cleaning up period. And I know she understands what I mean cause she’ll say stuff like “Umma, I hate clean up.” By 7pm I had it and I just went off on her while she was sitting in her high chair. She put both of her hands to her eyes and just started sobbing as if she had been holding it in all day and I had just broken her. I went to unbuckle her seat so that I could just hold her in my arms and she was bawling and kind of backed away as if she was scared that I was going to do something to hurt her. I took her and just held her and she just started crying so hard and just sounded soooo sad and defeated and started to hyperventilate while burying her face into my shoulder. I remembered what LolxGirl had said. She looks at her youngest daughter Olivia and sees just how young she is and she remembers how hard she was on Maddie at that age and I remember her saying “When I look back now she was JUST a baby. I feel really bad.” I just held her and said “Mommy needs to learn how to relax right Zoe?” She was still crying hard but took a second to say “Yesh.”
I’m sorry Zoe. Mommy will learn to relax.
So we just started praying this week and we pray for nice days. When I say nice days I mean days where we don’t fight. Hahaha…
Comments (25)
aww i love this! she is such a stinker, too cute!
It’s hard isn’t it? I know girl. It’s also because Zoe is talking and is so smart you think she is older than she actually is. I think we as mothers expect so much from our first borns. I still do. I look at Maddie and expect the world from her because she is my firstborn and because she is so bright and smart but I have to remind myself she is just a child not just a little person. Hang in there!
On a brighter note, you actually made me feel better. I know it’s so wrong when you’re feeling horrible but I can’t help it. =P I’m thinking if someone sweet and patient as you can lose it, that means I’m not a such a horrible and impatient mom. Every night I say to myself, “I’ll be more patient and nicer” but the next day rolls in and I have a problem keeping that promise.
We all lose it at times but hear me out on this Susan, you are one of the best mommies I know!
such a precious video!! Zoe looks like such a big girl. Thanks for sharing!
“please let me have a nice day tomorrow”
i’m totally in tears right now, cuz that’s the prayer i needed
thanks zoe
**close your eyes**too cute!!!!!!!!!
awwwwww you guys… that was such a sweet prayer.
Zoe, you’re a beautiful child. You’ll have a nice day every day.
aww.. poor mommy and zoe! being a mommy is so hard sometimes and i hope you guys have nice days too!
Aww..this is wonderful! Thank you for sharing. And thank you for teaching Zoe to be grateful for every beautiful people who love her.
zoe is the most adorable kid. you’re lucky to have her in your life susan
@LoLxGirL - nancy you bitch….your comment made me tear. i effin hate you. it’s opposite day.
@kanipark - ur having a rough week too babe?
my heart just melted
Your video made my heart melt. She’s so adorable.
You’re not a bad Mom for getting angry, everyone loses their temper sometimes. Just do your best, that’s all anyone can ask of you.
I have had that moment, and I felt sooo bad. Geez, they’re kids! We have our good days, and not so good days. = That prayer was too too precious.
Oh, so sorry to hear. Not there yet as Munchkin is too small, but have been following this blog for parenting advice to remember when I get there: http://greatergood.berkeley.edu/half_full/
Sorry, here’s the link to the exact post:
http://greatergood.berkeley.edu/half_full/?p=836
“How to get kids to do boring (but necessary) tasks”
hope it’s helpful
aw zoe…that was the sweetest prayer. you know, i remember the exact post that lolxgirl wrote that you’re talking about. that one stayed with me too. i try to remind myself that lila is just a baby but sometimes it’s really hard. i guess we all go through those lose your patience moments. you’re a great mom susan and zoe is an amazing girl
sooo cute! can’t believe how well she talks.
You’ve learned a great lesson from Nancy. I cry and grab my heart for all the times I look back at when I yelled at Tobey.. at around Brady’s age.. for jumping on the bed and not sleeping.. for running into the room when I was trying to get brady (infant) to sleep. Ugh. so sad. I wish I could go back and yell at myself NOT to do that to my mr. t. =(… *sniff*
Zoe is so blessed to have a mommy like you! yay! She’s a pro at talking now! *hugs*
I love that prayer! I love your ending with, ” please let me have a nice day tomorrow!” So simple words, but oh so true!
And all this time, I thought you never yell at her. I always thought you played with her, did arts and crafts, and videotape her all day. Whew… glad to know that I’m not the only mom that explodes once in awhile. Cute prayer.
omg i love this video! walter loved it too! awww zoe!
@virtualberta - thank you for this. i’m gonna try this out next time we’re about to have a melt down together.
@Ix_LittleB_xI - hahaha you made walter watch it. go make your own babies!